So I've been drawing some strange things... So that means I'm drawing something happy, so kill me if my next work isn't something happy ok? (I'm trying that reverse physchology crap on myself lol)

I need to do something to chin up, I can't be like this forever, maybe I should talk about all the good things that happened to me today... (randomly tring to get happier..) I got to eat rainbow cake XD it was amazeing, my bestie Katie made it, and I hopefully will have a cake like that for my b-day it waaaas sooooo good I was so overjoyed that one of my classes ended early and I got a couple minutes to stop by and see her and my other friend hannah, god I love all my friends, they're my everythings I also got to see my love, and I got a hug, so I'm all good, as long as I get free hugs. I also saw mida, and we hugged for a looong time cause I love her so bad, I didn't want to let go, I never wana let go of any of them (hah hah, so when I get that chance you guyz are screwed, you'd have to take me everywhere XD, (in case if my Real Life friends read this lol))

I've came to a lot of conclusions recentally, and eventhough I can't stop somethings from happening, it's life, and I must learn to deal with it.(afterall, I'm growing up, and I'm actually an adult now.. but some people beleive I can't handle things, and that's what gets me) The complicated shit, hell yeah it's complicated, but I have to take that one step at a time... I have to take my time... I've been looking at the problems from a whole, not in sections.. I must learn to simplify things more accordingly... stupid me, and on top of that, I have a better clue of why some people are dissatisfied with me, it's not my fault(but I guess I've been pushing it now..), but a talk with them can fix it better (hopefully anyways...), I don't believe they understand why I'm doing some things, so hopefully it'll work out.

As for other things, I registered for year-round housing, I had to beacsue they have no clue when a spot will become available, so I could be anywhere next year.... that's a lil problem in it's self, but I shall also take that as it comes, so I'm tring to be me again hopefully I can be back to normal soon, I need to give people more smiles, who wants to hang out with someone who complains and worries and has no fuuuuun? (lol that's meh, and noooooes, I don't wana hang out w/myself, at least not until I get happierzzzz )
Sorry bout the random depression, I just got hit so fast, and I tried to shut things out, but it only amplified a bunch of crap... blegh... as for other thingzzzz, Im qite satisfied with my recent photoshop works! (WOAH SHIT! since when am I happy-ish with my art?!) I want to keep getting better, maybe even have more elaborate everything! and I'm also thinking about doing some trades again soooooon, only cause, I haven't done them in soooooo long lol.

-Quote of the day.... I once said this to one of my DA sisters (sam to be exact XD) it inspres me so and I MADE it up all by myself! use it well :

"I love ink, not earaseing ur mistakes can be annoying, but with work you can turn that mistake into an advantage...
Or more so I mean to say, ink is just like life, you can't erase the past, but you can turn it into a future of how ever you choose because you draw your own path.."